the engine's still humming

I reached my goals for last week! Well almost. I'm struggling with the wake up time, I just can't get out of bed by 8:20. It's always between 8:23 and 8:25. So I'm going to tweak it. I have to be up and out of bed by 8:25. Amazingly enough, now that I set a bed time for myself, I'm finding that I actually going to bed sooner than 11:30. That's pretty darned awesome!

I struggled getting in the 20 minutes of exercise, but I did it (even though I procrastinated half way through the week)! I'm going to stick with this goal one more week before adding to it.

Meanwhile I'm still struggling with the internal battle of my mind. I've found myself at the bottom of the barrel. I can remember the last time the clouds lifted and I actually felt like myself, sometime in the early spring, pre-Portland. I want that day back. I want that feeling back. I want to feel alive again.