Take joy in running the race, not trying to win it.

I don't know why I keep avoiding writing a new post. It's not like I've quit or not completed goals. I've been on my computer all week. Why haven't I written, yet?

In any case, I completed last week's goal and am holding steady for my monthly goal. I'm proud of myself! I dropped the reward system. I can't tell if it was working, but anyhow I should be able to do this from motivation from inside myself, not material stimuli. Although, my behavior modification professors would say other wise. It's ok to give yourself a reward, but we are tight tight tight on funds and I just can't always justify spending the money in my head. I do really really need new hiking/running shoes because mine hurt my feet and don't support my high arch properly. I found a decent pair at a discount store, but that was months ago. Maybe they still have 'em. I'll try to check it out mid August. This pay check is purely for rent and bills.

My goal for this week was to complete 25 minutes of physical activity 4 out 7 days. So far so good! I only have one session left to do and will more than likely complete it today. Next week will be the same goal, as I'm trying increase time and number of days at a slow pace. Mostly every 2 weeks. Ultimately I would like to achieve 60 minutes, 6 out 7 days. But like I said, that won't happen over night. I am enjoying my time outdoors as well as not pushing myself so far that I give up to quickly. I am building confidence. That gray cloud hanging over my head has shifted slightly. I really needed that. I needed to feel a little more like myself.

T and I are trying to buy mountain bikes. Well, he already found his, but it seems women's bikes are few and far between. We're using the cash from selling his old truck to the junk yard. We also used it to buy a new blender from costco. That dang pos of mine got on my last nerve. I haven't had a chance to try the new one out yet, but I'll be all of it tomorrow!

Check out this article. It gave me a little reassurance in rewriting the rules.