Food Diary- day 6

• bagel w/ cream cheese
• 1 c fritos chips (mmm salt)
• 6 in veggie sub with roasted red pepper, diet soda
• smoothie made w/ the usual suspects +plus fresh raspberries from the farmers market!
• ~8 whole wheat waffle dippers, home made potatoes o'brien w/ onions & green peppers & cheese, honey dew, pineapple, peaches
• 2/3 package (movie theater size) twizzlers
  

Food Diary-5

• bagel with cream cheese
• 1 c amy's organic white cheddar mac and cheese, lots of honey dew, mixed salad w/ cherry tomatoes and FF dressing
• (from scracth) mixed grain pizza with black beans, salsa and cheese
• orange cream sicle

Food Diary-Day 4

• bowl of whole grain cheerios with soy milk
• coffee w/ splenda and FF half and half
• 1/2 c left over sloppy joe, 1 slice multi grain bread, 2/3 c peas w/ a dallop of smart balance spread, 2/3 c no sugar added peaches
• smoothie w/ orange, banana, 5-6 strawberries, ice cubes, 1/2 c LF vanilla yogurt
• whole wheat pasta w/ part skim ricotta, spinach, olive oil
• 1 slice texas toast, 1 boca griller
• big bowl of chocolate peanut butter ice cream
  

Food Diary-Day 3

• bagel w/ moderate serv of cream cheese
• coffee w/ splenda and a splash of FF half and half
• home made noodle soup made with 1 chopped carrot, a handful of chopped broccoli, water, veg bullion, 1 T peanut oil, a couple splashes of teryaki sauce, and a package of tofu noodles (and yes, I ate the whole pan!)
• smoothie made with a whole banana, orange, 5-6 strawberries, 3/4 c LF vanilla yogurt, 10-12 ice cubes, split between 2 people
• 1 special K granola bar
• 1/3 bag of frito corn chips
• 2 sploppy joes, 2/3 c peas w/ moderate portion of earth balance spread
  
• a bowl of peanut butter and chocolate ice cream (Darn you Tillamook for being on sale! We must get married in another life!)

Sorry for not posting yesterday! I was busy getting ready for my mom's visit!

Food Diary-Day 2

• ~1 c multi-grain cheerios with ~1 c light vanilla soy milk (ahh yes everything is eye balled here)
  
• 2/3 c unsweetened canned peaches (hey, I'm out of fresh fruit and was too tired to go to the store last night)
• 4 c coffee with 2 T splenda and 2 splashes of light vanilla soy milk (I completely forgot to put that on yesterdays--though it has a minimal amount of calories...)
• ~1-1 1/2 c of left broc/rice cass from last night, 2/3 c pureed pumpkin w/ 1 t smart balance, and 3/4 c frozen green beans
• 1 special K granola bar
• PB & J made with 2 slices multi grain bread, regular PB and apricot jam
• 1 package of these hazelnut chocolate bars I came across at the store. The package looked like it could possibly be related to Nutella (=heaven). bows head. It's a serious weakness, I know. Shall I put my hand out for you to smack?
  

**Edit**

• bowl of peanut butter chocolate ice cream (i needed it, I swear)
  

So I weighed myself this morning, aye ye ye. Really scale, are you sure about that? I mean I know I've been lazy lately but that can't surely be the current number. Can you find it in your heart for anything less? Just to make me feel slightly better about myself? No? Fine then.




I think I'm going to go cry myself to sleep now.

Food Diary-Day 1

• 1 sarah lee cranberry orange bagel with ~2 T weight watchers whipped cream cheese
• smoothie made with 1 banana, 1 orange, 4-5 small strawberries, 6 ice cubes 2/3 c low fat vanilla yogurt
• 1 c (uncooked) whole wheat pasta topped with 1/3 c creamy roasted red pepper alfredo sauce, a good handful of raw broccoli florets, 10-ish grape tomatoes
• handful of terra chips
• 1 1/2-2 c of my very own broccoli rice cheese casserole made with unbleached long grain rice, frozen chopped broco, a can of condensed broc/cheddar soup, and cheese

**EDIT**

• 4 5 vegan pumpkin muffins (nugget's recipe) through out the day
• handful of semi sweet chocolate chips
  

The End.

One step forward, two steps back

Isn't that saying supposed to go the other way around? I've forgotten over the years...but I honestly feel like that's what this whole thing is. As soon as I feel like I've accomplished something I fall backwards and find myself 1 step behind where I began. I managed to get in 3 walks/hikes last week. I feel like after having to work away from home the week before, I'm having the darnedest time getting back into my groove. I had a really good routine down, at least it was for me. Now I'm seriously struggling getting it back. Who knew one week would throw me for such a loop?

I didn't weigh myself this morning. Honestly I forgot and was way too disoriented before I hoped in the shower. Alas I will try to remember tomorrow morning to do it, but I'm scared of what the scale will say.

I didn't reach last week's goal again. I have the hardest time on the weekends. I don't know what it is about weekends that makes it hard on for me to fulfill a regular eating schedule. I did sit on my duff most of the weekend. Ahhhh where did my motivation go?

Week 6 goal: Maintain a food diary for the week in which I record every morsel that enters my mouth. I also have to give nightly updates on here. I mean what's the point unless everyone out holds me to it, right? Right.

On a side note, the complex changed the pool hours to 10 am-5:30 pm. I guess there were complaints of rowdy conduct. That's just fantastic. Especially since it was a nice relief from the heat. I guess there's no more evening swims with T. Bah Humbug.

Perseverance

I'm so freaking frustrated at this point! I've lost. I've gained. I've lost. I've gained...Now I weigh 1/2 pound more than when I started. How does that happen??? Oh yeah, I know how, not completing my goals! What's my deal? Am I falling off the band wagon after a month? I think I lost my mojo. The last week has been so discouraging. I've already ruined my monthly goal. It was such a bad idea waiting until I had three days left in the week to fit in all I needed to do. But alas, I will persevere and continue working on my monthly goal despite feeling like I've failed. If I throw in the towel because I slipped than it's lose lose. Just because one week was wrecked doesn't mean this week or the one after, etc will be bad either. I still can't believe I gained it all back and then some! That part just doesn't make any since to me. I've been working out for weeks now, how discouraging! But like I said, I'm going to fight back, gosh darn it!

Ok, we're going to try this one more time. third time's the charm, right?
Week 5 goal: consume 5 fruits/veggies a day for 6 out of 7 days.
I think I was making it too hard on myself.

And a reminder of what my monthly goal is: 5, 30 minute sessions of continuous activity and 3, 10 minute ab workouts.

...I think I can I think I can I think I can....

Week 4 already?

Ok, so I've been avoiding this place all week. I don't even know where to begin....
Well, last week was an awesome week, until shit hit the fan Saturday involving my future brother-in-law and my job. It didn't begin with my job but he used it against me anyhow. The event was crushing and overwhelming, needless to say it ruined my whole week as far as fruits and veggies go. I managed to complete my week on Sunday even though I fucked it up Saturday. A feat in and of itself. But because the goal was 7 out of 7 days I cannot reward myself because of that one horrible day. This week's goal is: eat 3 servings each of fruit and vegetables 6 out of 7 days. I think I was setting myself up to fail by making the goal for every day of the week...

My monthly goal is going good so far. I'm a bit behind this week as I haven't done any ab workouts. Due to the "circumstances" I'm currently not working at home. I know its not a great excuse, but I had made it a part of my daily routine, not evening routine...anyway I still have time to squeeze them all in by Sunday night.

I can't believe I've made it this far. I heard on the radio the other morning that it takes our minds and bodies 6 months to make exercise a regular part of our lives. Wow. That just seems so hard to accomplish, but if I take it one day, one week, one month at a time, I can make it a part of my life.

Well I'm out, the spinach and tomato salad I ate for dinner gave me a tummy ache for some reason.

Week 3 already?

My battery and arm band came in, now I can go on walks jammin to some tunes! Now I just need to reinstall the software for the player. Hmm I wonder where that could be...

I forgot to weigh myself this morning, I had to shuffle out the door unexpectedly and by the time I got back I had drank coffee. I fairly certain that I gained a pound or 2 back. I've been pretty bloated I'm pretty sure the weight I lost last week was water weight. I didn't do so hot last week. I was feeling down on myself and didn't have much motivation. Also, with T's dad around, I was afraid to get caught mid work out and I CANNOT work out in front of anybody. I don't even like it when T sees me work out. Funny though, I can work out at a gym, just not in front of any body at home. I guess I just feel more vulnerable.

On to the goals:

Week 2 goal: not met :( See above for my excuses. :/
Month 1 goal: completed and rewarded for. I can't wait to try out my new flat iron tomorrow morning! I had no idea what I was doing when I picked one out, I hope it lives up to my expectations.

Now since I didn't complete last week's goal and I feel as though I should have, I just didn't make the effort, I'm going to make it this month's goal.

Month 2: Complete 30 minutes of physical activity 5 days out of 7 and 10 minutes of abdominal exercises 3 out of 7 days per week. Reward: New hiking/running shoes. I saw a pair I liked at Marshals for 25-30$.
Week 3: Consume 3 servings each of fruits and vegetables every day of the week. Reward: I think I'm gonna stick with the starbucks tall sugar free fat free hazelnut mocha. mmm mmm.

Holding up

Man I felt like crud today. I could barely bring myself out of bed this morning. I felt no drive to do anything to do with healthy living. I honestly didn't eat much today, but what I ate wasn't exactly the best choices, minus the salad, carrots, and hummus I ate after my walk (think: doritos, banana bread, chocolate chips, and more banana bread). I think part of my blah-ness had to do with getting to bed late last night (damn dorito's quest!) and not going on a walk yesterday. I finally got around to doing my first ab workout of the week. AT 6:45 pm. The workout I chose was a bit too advanced for me, so I just ended up doing my old school crunch routine from my college days. I do however feel 10 fold better after the fact. That just goes to show that working out does more than shape your body, it shapes your mood, too! I think next week I might mix up my walks with a little cardio on the t.v. I'm not sure what my exact goals will be. All I know is that I sit too much on my rump during the day!

I can't wait until my new battery and arm band arrive for my Creative Labs Zen Micro. It sure will make working out a little bit easier. I just hope the new battery is all it needs to work. Otherwise I think I may have to invest in a new mp3 player *crosses fingers* and I really don't need another thing to buy!

It's not getting any easier

Grrr Emilie brought me burger ville for lunch today. That means it's only the second day into the week, and I can't have fast food for the rest of it. I guess this is a reminder that every week is going to be different and that just because the previous week was easy doesn't mean this one will be. But really, in any weight loss program the second week is always harder, at least it is for me. This is the point at which I usually fall off the band wagon. Not this time though, as tough as it may get, I owe this to myself. I'm going to stick with it. I have too. I'm in a race with myself and I'm determined to beat that "other side." I can honestly say my life depends on it. It's really not my goal in life to die at 45 with a heart attack and type II diatebes. Perhaps a little over exagerated, but heart disease runs in the family, and so does high cholesterol. My grandfather died last year with heart disease, type II, and advanced emphysema. My mother also had a small heart attack in her mid forties. I do not want to that to be my fate.

Begin Week 2

Wow! I can't believe I lost 2 1/2 pounds in the first week! I really didn't expect that. Who knew simply talking 5, 1/2 hour walks and significantly decreasing eating out would help me lose that.

Week 1 goal: accomplished!
Month 1 goal: so far so good! I gave in to Taco Bell yesterday, while running errands, the only time I ate fast food last week.

So, lets move on to week 2: incorporate 3, 10 minute ab workouts while maintaining my 5, 30 minute walks. Now that we have cable again, I can access FitTV on demand, which has many different workouts to choose from, including ab workouts.

My reward will be a tall nonfat sugar free, hazelnut mocha from Starbucks. Mmm that sounds so good! I haven't picked out my flowers for accomplishing my goal for week 1. I should make a point to do that today.

Even though I still feel tired, although I think that could have a direct relationship with sleeping patterns of late, I do feel as though I have more energy. I'm doing better with keeping up with household maintenance, which is something I'm not all that great at. Mostly because I'm too lazy to do it. But I'm learning that there's something to say about having a clean and organized home. It's actually a lot easier to be lazy and more enjoyable to sit back because when i look around I see clean and organized instead of clutter and messiness. I love that I know where things are when I go to look for them. You know I read somewhere that there is a correlatoin between people's messy homes and their weight. As you can imagine, they found that people with messy and cluttered homes had a tendency to be over weight. My question is, what came first, the messiness or being over weight? I've been obese since I was 5. I do remember that growing up, my room was overwhelmingly messy. Really, though, I think the point they were trying to make is when we let ourselves go in one faucet of our lives, we have a tendency to let ourselves go in all faucets of our life. On the other side of that, I think that if you start to pull yourself together with say, exercising, everything else falls into to place as well. You start to take care of every part of your life. You find the motivation for everything, not just one thing. That's not to say it happens over night, but I've noticed that every day I put more effort in another thing that I previously did not. In the end, I think you want your surroundings to match your life style. If you feel you have it all together, you want your life look put together.

Alright, I think it's time to get off my butt and go for a walk. Happy week 2!

Blah.

Well today was fairly uneventful. I had the day off, as we were supposed to be going on a big camping trip, but it got canceled due to the cruddy weather. I ended up sitting on the couch the majority of the day and watching tv/fiddling with my wii. I didn't go on a walk. It rained most of the day and was cooold. Although I did talk my self out of DQ again. We were leaving D & Em's after dinner/poker and I brought it up with T. I said that if we went tonight we wouldn't be able to the rest of the weekend. I really wanted it but I made the executive decision and decided not to in case we find ourselves in a position that we don't have a choice. I am very proud of myself to come to this conclusion. The old me would say oh well, but the new me says plan ahead. You can have a fudge-cicle when you get home. Can you tell I'm craving DQ hard core? It's mostly because we don't have sonic and its the next best thing. I haven't been this close to a DQ since I left KC. That's almost 2 years! I know eventually I'm going to give into my craving. I can't stop thinking about it...I just have so many good memories attached to that particular item. Most of them are associated with my sister, but there are also a few involving friends in high school. You know those ones that actually don't involve drama or hard feelings. Just pure happiness.

I digress.

I still have 2 more days to get in my walk. Maybe I should walk to the grocery store to buy my flowers. Does that work? It's probably about 15-20 minutes one way...so if I walk there and back, I'll rock it! Sweet!

Just a side note, I just watched this older guy play a turkey baster on Jay Leno. I mean play. Similar to this minus the "over the shoulder bastor holder": Musical Turkey Bastor.